Sunday...

gawd! i missed blogging! our dial tone was busted for a week that's why i wasnt able to go on line. i have so much story to tell!!! im so excited!!

our classes started already, i met almost all of my teacher...well...all i can say is..GOOD LUCK B.A! i can feel it...ang hirap ng subjects ko this sem. especially phil. history! i have to read the newspaper everyday,then every tuesday, may quiz kami about it! and besides, sbi niya, pag naka C+ kami excempted na kami sa finals...DUH! C+!!! ang baba na nun! so she is expecting us na highest na ung C+!!!!! waaahhh....i need an extra effort...our theology teacher is a nun. astig nga eh! haha..it wasnt my firts time to have a nun tcher, pero i see that this nun is different..astig! haha...hmm? wat else?...o yeah! our basic cartooning teacher!! he really looks like franzen of big brother!!! and he has this tattoo on the left side of his neck. according to jhade he looks like a rapist daw,kaya lumayo layo ako! hahaha...overprotctive bf strikes again! btw, look at his works at www.celestialvoid.com

hmm?...thats all for now...update later guys.. bye

im 18!!! im now really a lady. i can even go to jail and now i can vote! hahaha...i even joked around and said, "wow! makakanuod nako ng R18!!!" hahaha..well i dont feel like 18, maybe cause i just turned 18 hours ago...

for 18 years of living int his world, here are some of the things i learned, you may learn something to:

1. life is so short to waste and hate it...enjoy what life brings you.

2.insecurities are like pimples, the more you squeeze them, the uglier it looks worst, it leaves you with this ugly scar!

3.mother's instinct are true...(i actually learned that when i lost my fone, when i got home, my mom said that she dreamed of me being hit by a car, good thing, i only lost my phone that day)

4.dads are like your dogs, they bark and bark until the stranger goes away.. (gets?!)

5.ates are always mean..because they want you to be the best, they are true friend and would tell everything straight to your face,they wont care if you get hurt, what matters is, you learned.

6.if you are stranded in a deserted island, a leader would climb the highest coconut tree to see where is the right way to get off that island.

7.organizing an organization is like having your own family, you must cater everyone's need but dont spoil them, give them what they only deserve...

8.life is a roller coaster, its fun and exciting

9.lovers can be friends, it is a sign of maturity when you truly accept that you moved on and you accepted that things will never be the same again.

10.professors can be your true friend...ryt sir vince? ;)

11.it takes two to boogie...or to swing...if u want, waltz

12.the sweetest in life LIBRE

13.one smile a day, keeps the assholes away

14.if you get hurt, your normal

15.elephants wont go out on your wounds, neither rice,meat,fork,spoon..

16.TRUE LOVE IS HAVING SOMEONE TO WALK WITH DURING THE RAIN, HAVING SOMEONE TO HUG YOU WHEN YOUR COLD, HAVING SOMEONE TO KISS YOU BEFORE BED, HAVING SOMEONE TO ACT LIKE A FOOL JUST TO MAKE YOU LAUGH,HAVING SOMEONE TO TALK TO AND TO ARGUEON SOMETHING, HAVING SOMEONE TO TELL YOU THAT HE SUPPORTS YOU ALL THE WAY AND WOULD CHEER YOU..GO MAHAL!,HAVING SOMEONE WHO WOULD GO AN EXTRA MILE FOR YOU,and the list goes on...in the end, TRUE LOVE IS WHEN YOU DONT KNOW ITS LOVE UNTIL IT HITS YOUR RIGHT THROUGH YOUR HEAD.

17.this one i learned from my mom, red things drive away evil spirits..that's why i hate! red!!. =)

18.friends are like mushrooms, they just pop out...

19.true friendship is tested through time

20.we are flowers in God's garden, so...wait...you will bloom sooner than you think.

21.education is the key to success

22.if you stop learning, might as well die

23.everyday, little miracles happen

24.i love this saying "if life throws you a lemon, make lemonada" its true...always see the sliver lining, everything has its postive side..

25.dancing is like singing, i both love it, but they hate me..what gives? i dont care...

26.you will never know your talents unless you try something.

27. sometimes, being alone is great

28.PRAYER IS ALWAYS THE BEST MEDICINE

29.cry..there is nothing wrong with it.

30.memories are not only remembered, they must be captured, so keep your digi cams handy

31.internet is a way of relaxation

32.kids do lie!!! they are just so cute you will believe...

33.short or tall, we are all humans

34.there is no harm in greeting good morning

35.travelling for two hours is a daily adventure

36.life is like a box of chocolate that is better shared with someone

well..that's all for now..bye!!

Tuesday

i havent blogged for 2 days... i dont feel like blogging at all, that's why. last sunday, i hade my hair rebonded already, so our date was cancelled. then my sister became an a**h**e and said to break up with him, marami pa raw guys dyan, and why cant i choose someone who belongs to a buena familia or a family that goes to lunch on Sundays, she even flipped the pages of Candy mag and saw Champ of Hale then she said, someone like him (goodluck b.a!) im the only hope of mom and dad to have a good life, hindi ko sila magets?! bakit?! why pressure me?! bakit hindi sila ang nagasawa ng ganun?! bakit nagasawa sila ng mga average joes!!! then put pressure on me?!! duh?! and besides, i know someone like the guy my sister wants me to be-boyfriend, and HE SUCKS BIG TIME! EVERYTIME NA NAIISIP KO UNG TIMES NA YUN,GUSTO KO SIYANG BATUKAN FOR MAKING ME LOOK LIKE A FOOL! outside he looks perfect (except for physical), he goes to church every sunday, kala mo perfect kung magsalita, but makes fun of your feelings, tama ba yun?! parang pinanganak siyang A**H**E he is a living proof that people can easily deceive other people! if only i can turn back time, i wont go to that phase ever again,...(bato bato sa langit, tamaan wag magalit) so back with my story, my ate gives me a month to break up with jhade, but i dont want to! so magiging pasaway ulit ako,i wont break up with him! i'm being obedient to all of their orders, the only thing im wishing for is to think that im responsible enough to have a bf. then my sister said, WALA KA PANG KARAPATAN KASI HINDI KA PA KUMIKITA tama ba yun?! so money does talk in this family. your right as a member of this family is based on your salary! pinaka boss siya cause she receives tons of cash every month, she gave dad a car,she pays for my tuition, financer in all events no wonder my mom loves her and im the unseen and unoticed one. well yeah, she is smart, (she graduated cummlaude) but im also an Urbano, why cant people hear my thoughts in this haus? why cant they stop and talk to me for a while and to know me. their was even an instance in school when my parents fetched me at school, arla and i together with the freshies were fooling around, then dumating sila mami, when i got inside the car, sabi ng mami ko, "sabi sau eh, si b.a ung magulo" then my dad said "eh hindi naman ganun si b.a". that proves something, they dont really know me. all they know is that im their daughter and thats it. at some point, it was my fault, for not being close to them, but i was left alone in the first place. i dont know how to get attention from my parents, so the only thing that im doing is to study hard, get a good job and give them money, if that what it takes to have their attention. i feel like a black sheep in this family, parang hindi ako belong sa kanila. i guess, kasi ang layo ng agwat namin, pero sana they anticipated the age gap. sometime, i feel loved, but most of the time, i feel alone. good thing, i have my room,this is my home, my sanctuary, i have a place where i can be myself and be the b.a that i really am. but i dont feel disturbed about this, im just typing this to blurt out who i really am, behind those smiles, behindi those jokes, this is the b.a that is hiding for all the people to see. im like a clown, wearing a big smile mask ,but is cryng inside, longing for someone...